cyeo's blog...

2009-08-11T20:40:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry.

2009-07-28T00:43:00.003+08:00

with all the crap going on now i seriously dont need this shit.
i guess you were too in your own world to realise what was going on with me. it doesn't matter does it? we dont matter much anyways.
sometimes i just wished you could pull me out of all this and just bring me to your side.

now come on, come on to this tragic affair...

staying up later and later cos i dont want the new day to start. you being there makes everything better. but sometimes i really want you to just hate me. cant you just do that for me? i'm really selfish. yeah. i am. i'm sorry. i love lying. it's what i do best. i hate lying. i do it too well. i've always wished you could be the only one who could see past the lies. ohwells. i still love you anyways. but only when you say you really hate me. is the time when i'll tell you, i love you.

and you can take all the pain away from me.

i thought the hug would make it all better. it didnt. i cant see other people's flaws pass my own so they dont really exist here. so what if you're greater? well, at least u say you are. does that really affect me? if you havn't noticed everyone's looking at your flaws right now. i guess we never thought this would happen right?

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?

and you. stop it already would you? i'm only doing this just cos they said to give it a 7th try. yes 7th. i'm not listening to any of my own just cos they told me i should never give up. and i would have never stopped that easily anyway. i'll just see where He wants to take me to.

dont just walk away from the choice you made.

on a happier note, i'm almost halfway through my eom.
you know that i'll always love you right? no matter how much you poke fun at me. no matter what you say or do. as long as you're still here. i'll never give you away. i'm sorry but your fav colour was given to someone else.

i need a break from escaping homework.

2009-07-25T23:43:00.005+08:00

10 times. you said it 10 times tonight. it'd be nice if you could

STOP FRIGGING

MISLEADING ME!

if only i could find out what u're thinking.
if only you knew how right you were.

it's not over tonight.
it never was.

2009-07-13T21:23:00.003+08:00

wooooo!!~ exam over! results are back and full of shit.haha!!! :)))))
okayokay i so need to work harder... OHWELLS!

cos i want to feel as much pain as i caused you.
it's like you're my other heart since i share everything single thing with you.
EVERY.SINGLE.THING. no matter whether you're gonna like it or not.
could you do the same for me?
i wished i could be your other heart.
now, wont you throw some shit to me?
somehow, you'll never understand that that's what i always wanted.
i feel like screaming to your face that i'm talking to YOU.
prompting and baiting doesnt work.
maybe direct approach would?

lifes getting crappy in school.
i wished i had my darhling in class with me... :((((
it's just not the same anymore. haha oms. i'm like so much much quieter in class now. and so much less active/retarded.

DOUBLE DATE ON WEDNESDAY!!!!
hahaha! my ganstah boyfriend and i along with eugene and his BOYFRIEND. LOL!!!!!
woooooooo!!!~~~
4M!!! dont wear blazer for founders okay!!! wooooooooooo~ we're gonna see everyone again.
wells... it's not much of a post but it's still a post.... ohwells.

i STILL hate you.

i think you think i'm thinking of someone else.
but i think you're thinking of someone else.
we're just screwed this way.

2009-07-04T21:25:00.002+08:00

if it was your smile i fell for,
how can i hide it?
how can i make it mine?
if that smile wasn't for me,
can i let it go
and accept it wasn't meant to be mine?
-Mayday

2009-07-03T00:22:00.006+08:00

omg terms are finally over. 1 word for it.
SCREWED.
omg... i'm really praying i dont fail everything. .___. =(((
haha freak i got sick on like... the second day of terms. went to the docs and told him i was like having fever, flu, cough, headache (FREAK HEADACHE) and it's like... almost all the symptoms of being a swine lah. ohwellls! but it's not swine!!! WOOTS! docs gave me like. 2 days mc. so i ponned econs test and like...
I DUNNO WHY I WENT FOR PHYSICS TERMS OMGGGG.... I SHOULD HAVE PONNED ITTTT OMGGG. I BLANKED OUT WHEN I SAW THE QS LAHHH. =(((((((
thats besides the point. i'm gonna fail physics and gary's gonna have my freaking head. rawrh.
OKAY PUTTING TERMS ASIDE.

DURIAN PARTY!!! hahahahaha!!! OMG LOOK AT GREEDY RAYNER!!! HE CANT WAIT TILL WE GET TO LUCAS HOUSE SO HE JUST TOOK A SEED AND ATE IT ON THE SPOT! haha! ohwells we freaking spent 80+ bucks on durian lah! just the four of us - me, lucas, wee and rayner.

seriously lah today was suanning day:

"THE ANS WAS 12 000?! I PUT 12!!!"
haha okay omg i shall not suan you anymore. i think if that happened to me i will cry lah... but thats beside the point. HAHA! poor wee. got suanning like shit just cos the genious made a tiny mistake. HAHA. 32 now has a new nick name called 12.

"LUCAS WHY YOU BRINGING US INTO THE FOREST!?!" (we walked past a forest to reach his house)
"he's a bear what! he lives in a cave!"
hahaha! LUCAS WAS A MORON. told us it took 20 mins to get from around school to his house. 20 MINS BY CAR LUH. ... hahahaha! so... we actually walked from school all the way to 6th ave there. HAHA. omgg. 20 mins after the 20 mins he told us we were gonna reach in 20 mins from, he was like. OH 20 MORE MINS. haha! it's okayyy. it was a retarded walk. ^^

anyways we decided we didnt wannt walk anymore so i offered to try hitching a ride from someone. HAHA A CAR STOPPED but we were too surprised that it stopped so we chased the car away. HAHA OMG OHWELLS!!! thenn something bigger came along.......

UNCLE HOCK SENG'S BUS! HAHAHA YES WE WERE NEAR MGS!!! HAHAHAHA! some mgs bus driver hitched us a ride and like drove all the way to lucas's door step. HAHA! we still had quite a far distance to go lor! omgg. look at wee's and rayner's happy face that we got picked up!

lucas was directing the driver and like... in the end we offered him a seed of durain and like... everyone was happy! hahaha!

okay so then we went into lucas's house and like... had this whole room to ourselves. we ate durain and watched tv at the same time. omgggg.... we watched vasamtam channel. HAHAHAHA it was in tamil so like... everyone was gazing so intensly into the tv to try and decipher what they were saying. and omg the *cough. dots.* HAHA seriously luh. and the mickey mouse. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
i almost choked while drinking water just cos rayner and wee cracked a joke while i was drinking. omgg. lucas has 5 tubs of icecream at home. one of them is durian flavour! ^^

oh then we were watching Michael Jackson.
"Hey rayner! he's from your generation right?!"
ouchouchouch.

WOOTS! DURIAN SEEDS!!!

we did a tour around lucas's house and like .______. HUGE.
anyways. on the way home.......
rayner saw a DOT come up on the bus!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
HE COULDNT STOP LOOKING AT HER!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
heees~

anyways class picnic is like... in the morning. i should be sleeping... hahas!

HEYS DARHLING!
i havnt seen you in the longest time! =((( *hugs*
thanks for being around while i was sick yah?
lovelove, doreen.

and all of a sudden, i'm not looking forward to this time ahead.
it's like as if you found out or something.

STOP AVOIDING

ME!

this wait for destiny wont do.
be with me, please, i beseech you.

2009-06-25T23:33:00.008+08:00

LOOK LOOK! MY TABLE SHOWS THAT I'M SUCH A HARDCORE MUGGER! OMG!!! (nice try cyeo.)
HAHAHA OMG i cant mug at home for nuts. thats all for show! i'm actually playing com. HAHA! focus ur attention to the pepsi bottle, chocolate waffers and can of coffee. HAHA! yeah i'm snacking like crap. OHWELLLS.

I WANNA PON TERMS. (and a certain source said i could.)
according to the source mentioned above, AC's math exams are frigging hard, study oso will die. SO. i gave up on math. wth is that E sign thingy anyways?
i justjust started on chem and so far within the past 4 hours, i did TWO questions! (good job cyeo!)
I feel a strange sense of accomplishment. or issit just the feeling that i'm screwed?

tuesday was mugging at MG and it was damn effective lah. well, more than what i'm doing now...
sadly we got chased out of school after mugging there for 5 hours. HAHA. noob chased us away. said something about us having H1N1 so yeah ohwells.
"YES! I JUST FINISHED TUTORIAL 11! THIS CALLS FOR A CELEBRATION! WHO WANTS TO PLAY BRIDGE?!"
ohwells. we took breaks by playing ONE game of bridge. haha ohwells! it was like... back to the sec four mugging days. the jumping over tables to get to another. haha the funny thing was that everyone mugging in MG was J1 and only ONE sec 4. .___.

and even though ~~it seems like~~ i'm cheating on you.

I LOVE YOU.

*looking forward to class picnic after frigging terms~*

like a song,
you cant forget it.

2009-06-23T00:51:00.004+08:00

If only holidays were extended... WE COULD BE PLAYING POOL AGAIN THIS WEEK BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
frigging mugging week.

okay so it's like. time for us to start mugging since terms is next week. (FREAK NO EXTENSION! WHY!?) urghs. i feel like school holidays has BARELY started! ahhh crud.
i'm supposed to be sleeping right now. tmr's TING'S bday celebration! since her bday is so close to terms. (if there were extension of hols, we could have celebrated it properly.) we're going for a MUGGIN BDAY PARTY. omg i felt so sad as i typed that line. sorry ting, but we're mugging together as ur bday present. :((

insecurity's a bitch.
feeling so unwanted. then feeling wanted just after i put u aside.
what is this. ...

I HATE YOU.

2009-06-17T00:12:00.005+08:00

yay! went out with neighbours on saturday! lol it's been a long time since we've gotten together and like. went out or do something together. ohwells.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. homework's piling and like. the guilt of not mugging is like HAUNTING me. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i wanna go back to school, yet i dont wanna face terms. ohwells.
shit mannn this week's busy. bowlingbowlingbowling. rawrh.

10 more days.
hillsongs concert on 25th july. anyone going??
crap i think i should be sleeping. frigging acjc friendlies tomorrow. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

I AM PEEVED.

that i still havn't pulled up enough courage.

2009-06-13T00:05:00.006+08:00

four years out of practice, God please lead the way.

WOOOOOOOOOOOO~ today was girly date!! uhh. yeah wells. we were supposed to wear dress and like. no shoes or slippers, handbags is a must. hair down... blahblahblah. ohwells! it was fun. but awkward.

okay so we went to eat dim sum buffet.
omg poor satay she was like struggling to finish. COS TING BULLIED US. SHE DIDNT EAT MUCH. rawrh.
anyways. after that we went to watch ghost of girlfriend's past. it was nice-ish. haha. took veryveryvery few picts (sat's not happy about that) but yea had fun.

sorry, but i'm gonna hurt you. somewhat intensionally.

okay anyways, there goes the second week of holidays! ahh crap. so much for mugging. i hardly did anything so far. rawrh.
next week's gonna be even more packed up...
monday: semi-girly date.
tuesday: training.
wednesday: ACJC friendlies.
thursday: saxo class (i need to be reminded to schdule this.)
friday: Bowling CIP.
saturday: Class CIP, lavander mrt at 945am.
sunday: church, tuition.

3 down, 2 more to go.

tmr's gonna hopefully be packed too. ohwells. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i cant believe i'm saying this but... i wanna go back to school.... just not to the exams. rawrh.
I MISS YOU DARHLING! =\\\ i get to see you more when theres school!! rawrhhh. hope you're taking care of yourself? no conflicts? yeah... lovelove!

MEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I'M PEEVED! RAWRH.

I DONT DARE.

2009-06-10T20:56:00.007+08:00

okay so yesterday was 1SB4's first almost successful gathering! almost everyone was here and to whoever that wasnt there, we missed you. LOL.

yeah wells. seriously i took like ONLY 157 picts! it's not that much. dont call me a camwhore! haha! i'm efficiant in loading picts into facebook! woohoo~

the sand says i heart 1SB4. left to right: Joey, Naz, Eugene, Zhai and Isaac.

Naz decided to dig his own hole and bury himself inside. haha and notice the pict? we DONT KNOW what the two of them are staring at. they even made Naz sandy boobs. .___. i didnt put the pict on my blog since they were violating naz in the pict. HAHA.

anyways, when me and zhiyun arrived after training, these three were trying to start a fire with ganjah, the match stick. and omg they couldnt even make a spark lah!!!

"OMG A SPARK! I'M GONNA CALL YOU SAMUEL!"

when the spark, samuel, died.

"DAMN YOU SAMUEL!" *throws the firestarter into the distance and isaac went back to praying*

XueQiao was our cook for the night! wells marshall and JonYap came and cook later on too but xueqiao was the coolest! HE HAD A FRIGGING CHRISTMAS CAP WITH BLINKING LIGHTS!!!! and an apron too!

left to right: me, youjing, joey and eugene. there were like. 5 girls that day? ._.

left to right: wenhui, zhiyun and me. and damned i didnt eat much. haha!

we found these little sand houses on the sand so i decided to take a nice pict!

but my sadistic classmates decided to kill them instead. OHWELLS!

according to mingruey this is the HOYA BICYCLE GANG! dont know why. haha! we took alot of picts WHILE cycling but like. lazy to post them here. and omg zhai can cycle with no hands! haha! anyways, top to bottom, left to right: Jianloon, Zhai, Eugene, Mingruey, Bryan, YouJing, YingWee and me.

and shit i feel damn pro! managed to take this pict with the camera across the road from a flat surface on the ground! haha! left to right: Bryan, JianLoon, Eugene, me, YouJing, YingWee, MingRuey, Zhai.

okay anyways if you're staring at this pict to figure out what it is, you can stop. LOL. even i cant really see. okay so after cycling, i think Eugene was trying to get joey to get over her fear of the sea. anyways, the two other jokes decided to attempt the throw people into the sea. LOL.

anyways, isaac had this BRILLANT idea (it was mine actually) to walk into the sea and see how far we could go.

"I dont have extra undeees."

"Neither do i!"

haha but anyways, we had fun. took that pict up there. uhhh. if i'm not wrong its left to right: Eugene, Joey, Naz in the front, me then isaac.

i've learnt that you cannot make ruggers topple down. unless you're a rugger yourself of cos. but thats not the point.

anyways it's almost halfway thru the hols and i havnt started anything at all. seriously omg.

is terms REALLY important?

if we fail it and pass eoy exam, can we still go j2?

damned.

EHHH WALAOO!!!!! MY DARHLING DISAPPEARED SINCE someonewhostartswithaletterJ CAME BACK! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

i love you sat. *hugs*

shann needs a dress.

merv needs to be a girl.

TING is better.

i lie.

i say the truth.

i twist my words.

it doesnt matter because they're just words afterall.

sweetcontradictorywords. makes things even MORE impossible.

2009-05-14T12:56:00.002+08:00

i'm in chinese class and i just wanted to tell you this.
i tried to comment on ur blog but... i dont have a username. :(((((

"hey love.
=\\.
tonights strings and i'm gonna be cheering for you okay?
stay sexy!
rawrh omg you knoww... life sucks major ball bags at the moment. thats how val foo would say it.
okay let's do it this way okay.
since when ever things sucks for you, i'd be in the same situation. so if things get better for you, things might get better for me! so cheer up okay?
stay cute!!!

lovelove,
darhling."

mehhhh.... just finished GP test and i'm supposed to be doing my chinese oral test now. going for strings concert later to watch my love perform. it seems like the days moving very quickly but i'm lost in lessons. crap.

i've got a craving for sakae. ohwells.

two down, one to go. wanting one back.

2009-05-08T20:49:00.002+08:00

ihate people whos names start with the letter J.

WOOHOO A div's over. bowled like shit on the first 2 days, and the next two was much better. but heck. CONGRATS TO LEON FOR 3RD IN MASTERS! wth if u scroll down to the previous post you'll see a 'congrats to lynette'. that's leon's sister. ...
ohwells there's next year. screw.

i wanted to talk to u today but you were being a bitch. ... seriously you're the only one i'd share things with but ohwells. putting things nicely, i wanted to slap you today. every single thing you said freaking cut me today and wells. i take everything u say straight to the heart so... i'll just have to live with it right... after all... you're the only you i have...

mehhh ro i missed you! you suck. but still, i love you! rawrh. i cant believe i'm number two... mehhs. hmph. lol omg i cant believe i hanged up on u today... ooops. tralalalala. but i still love you okay? i need a ro-hug.

time might be the remedy to some things but poison to others.
actually i made a decision already... but wells... i dont wanna gain when u'll recieve a loss... you dont know how much i care for you. there's not many. and yet... i hate it when u do something like this. but i'll love you for who you are...
"sleep tight cheryl" aren't gonna be the last words.

ah wells. shit i'm gonna be freaking lagging behind in school. ohwells. i've got nothing much to say about school. ahhh omg. okay. i needa do my zuo wen which was due like... this monday. WAS DUE. yes... ohwells. and like... gp compre and articles which was due... today. LOL ohwells. hols over cyeo. it's back to tuts for u. wait... hols...?

i wont explain, or say i'm sorry.
you'll never know what's gonna hit you. seriously because i dont think anyone's gonna expect this. why? because theres her. because theres him. that's why... i'm making this choice. i know you're gonna be angry that i didnt make the choice you told me to make. but. wells... yeahyeah... i know... one shot at life right...? maybe i just dont wanna do this life anymore...
give up? me? no way.
i'm just choosing not to be part of this....... ...
i can safely say that theres only 6 and i'm giving it all away. booo. i'm gonna do this so slowly you wont even notice it.........

okay i'm gonna like... train up my REV. haha! and like... change some stuff to get ready for next year... i really saw how much the seniors wanted it... it was really the last time for them.... shiit.... mehhhs........ 4 months was pissing enough let's see who will die first.... heeheeee...

iknow. iknow. iknow.
you'll see my smile from now on...
watch me do what i do best.
cos i swear, by today, the emo will be gone.
are emotions the same as feelings?

2009-04-28T18:46:00.003+08:00

OMG TODAY SUCKED SERIOUS SHIT.

rawrh. today's a crappy day. a very very crappy day. super crappy day. rawrh. i dunno what i was doing on the lanes luh! omggg... satay and i bowled like a piece of really crappy shit. rawrh. urghs. bloody frigging 141.5 avr. shit i want my 200 game. rawrh. omg. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

COME ON TEAM Cs WE HAVE TO HAVE TO HAVE TO BUCK UP!!! LIKE SERIOUSLY! LET'S AIM HIGHER SLOWLY OKAY! FOR DOUBLES LET'S GET AT LEAST A 160 AVR! THEN QUARTET WE'LL GET A 180 AVR! YESYESYES OMG THATS WHAT WE NEED! DONT GIVE UP! WE'RE MUCH STRONGER THAN THAT!!!!

satay and i have decided that we're gonna bowl at least 3 400-series in our 6 games. rawrhh. i need that luhhh... hmph. i really reallly want my mount faber days back. this thursday theres like training at mt faber so i hope that's gonna pull my mood up for saturday's training at occ. rawrh. i need a ro-hug.

oh btw how was ur day in school darhling? i missed you today and tmr!!! omg i was like. "damn i wished ro was here..." :( it's okay! i'll see u on thursday okay?! you can give me my hug then ^^

okay so the keyword for monday's doubles is 'RELAX'. steps to follow:
- if not bowling well, calm down and go back to the basics. start with a comfortable line and my fav ball. then adjust from there.
rawrh. thanks for that message it kept me from over emoing. ohwells....

things to say if i'm emo:
1) i've got a pocket, got a pocket full of sunshine.
2) i want it all.
3) every game above 160, you get to whack an imaginary QBface.
4) Jesus take the wheel.
5) when theres nothing else to say. just refer to number 1.

ALL THE BEST TO THE BOYS TMR! DONT BE LIKE US! STAY STRONG AND KEEP THE FIGHTING SPIRIT! WE'LL CHEER FOR YOU ALL THE WAY!!!! SERIOUSLY, WHEN THE LANES SUCK LIKE SHIT, SLAP IT'S FACE THEN MAKE SURE YOU OVER COME IT! STAY CALM AND RELAX!!!!!!!

urghs. i wonder how was 1sb4 in class today.

haha shit i brought another cat into the house today! my cat was super agitated and was like growling and hissing at the other cat. I SWEAR HE WAS TALKING HUMAN LANGUAGE!!! he was like "not funny!~~~" in this super super super low voice. shit it was damn scary. hahaha! omg i'm never bringing a cat home ever again!!!!

rawrh. omg. highest count of words i used today: shit, crap, rawrh and damn.

mehhh. rawrh.

"you see those people? didnt you hear what they just said? they said "omg that girl is freaking lousy why the heck is she bowling in a div? i could so totally trash her." and now they're laughing at you. what are you gonna do about it?"
"did you hear what they said? they're wondering how a loser like you got through with this kind of lousy scores. they're regretting taking you in already. what are you gonna do about it?"
"didnt you say you wanted to get something from a div? didnt you say that you were aiming for masters? with this kind of scores, who are you trying to kid? you dont even stand a chance of getting into the first page. so what are you gonna do about it?"
"what's the point? not like she'll win something right? support you for what? not like you'll get into masters right?"

i'm gonna cry and when i'm done i'm gonna slap someone's ugly face then i'm gonna show them i'm not as lousy a piece of crap they said i was. i'm gonna re-enter the game with full spirit. but first, i'm gonna pray.

2009-04-25T19:39:00.003+08:00

oh please. when i said friend i didnt mean friend you bastard.

LOL OKAY ANYWAYS! today was like... c div masters. WOOHOOO CONGRATS TO LYNETTE! seriously lah, her brother was super super supportive of her. cheered all the way for her? omg... why issnt my kor like that? (HINTS.)

rawrh A div is like... in 3 days time. i thought i was looking forward to it but like... now i'm not really. RAWRHHH omggg... i dont care. i'm gonna peak when a div starts okay!! hmphs...

1) no sweets and water for satay when she's bowling.
2) make sure no one eats a meal before we start bowling.
3) talk to cheryl.
4) no emoing.
5) pin 10 is your best friend.

shiit omg i dont wanna lose out on school work during this 2 week period. not gonna be in school on 28th, 29th, 4th, 6th, 7th and prolly 8th. i'm gonna work my ass off on tutorials after a div ends. screw them now.

oh nooooo. i'm gonna be missing the bus gang. =\\\. Ro take care of merv and joshua for us okay!!! make sure they dont come too close to breaking up!!! HAHAS. shit joshua is gonna stabb me with his badminton racket if he sees this. rawrh.

i had this argument with Naz if words meant a shit or not. we came to a conclusion that words would still have a consequence but actions are definately still better. rawrh. words still mean a shiit even if you didnt want it to.
would our absence even be noted?

ahhwells! today i saw MS OR! i told her i fail every subject in school so far. BUT I DIDNT FAIL PHYSICS. i aced it.
haha and she was the one who told me i'm gonna die so i should drop physics last time. rawrh! lalalala~ ohwells! OMG WE WENT DOWN TO SUPPORT THE C DIV AND B DIV! THEY SHOULD COME SUPPORT A DIV TOO!!!! wheees~ we need prayers for the next two weeks! who's willing to pray for us?

take the wheel.

2009-04-23T20:44:00.003+08:00

TEAM C!!!!!! Cheryl Ng, Claire, Charmaine, Cyeo.
5 more days to adiv. omgomgomg... COME ON TEAM C! i know we've bowled some shit games in occ these few days! but HECK! we're gonna be at our peak during Adiv okay!!! "TO THE ROCKET SKIES!"

Things to do during a div:
1) get motivational talk from Ting.
2) get high. (by singing songs of cos.)
3) stay calm, remember routine.
4) stop bowling when i get distracted by the moron next lane.
5) cheer like crap.
6) get AT LEAST a 160 for every game. (i dont know how this is gonna be possible in occ. omg so far the highest game i've gotten there is like... frigging 166. where did my mount faber days go?)
7) have good spirit.

=\\ it's like... school's crappy. failing all my test!! and like... lagging behind in tutorials... this is gay. i wanna slack my life away. rawrh.

friggingggggg youyouyou. pissing me off but i cant help but be worried for you. if you frigging lied to me i'm gonna knock your head into something painful. rawrh. so much for 'i cant imagine what it's like to stop totally talking to you'. well you've gotten your taste now what's you gonna do? frigging "sorry" doesnt mean anything when i dont even know what's going on over on ur side. if you dont frigging reply my messages anymore then i've got all rights to be pissed at you. sorrys dont mean a shit.
but somehow i know, in the end, i'd never hold a grudge against you.

"do you want it all, cyeo?"
"strike this frame?"
"think bigger."
"get 200+ games?"
"that's better."

we want it all.

2009-03-07T22:36:00.002+08:00

i'm dedicating this post to you dad.

it's fun to meet new people. this is 1SB4 playing around in an empty LT4! funness.

haha i'm like... looking back at the things that happened in the past and realised some of the people who i dont really think to be thankful for are like... the most valuable people. you know who i'm refering to... ^^
think about the people who caused us to meet in the first place. i think you know who i'm refering to dad! heeeeheeees.
sometimes i think about what happened within the past 5 years of my life and like... regret some of the choices i've made but in the end those choices are the biggest IMPACT for the good things that are happening NOW. OHWELLS.

damned i feel cheated.
playing HTG sucks!!!

i'll remember those times because i never want to return to them.

2009-03-05T18:55:00.009+08:00

back left to right: issac, elim, siyu, eugene bryan, jarrell, yingwee, jianloon, ming rui, yang chen, ian.
front left to right: xue qiao, nazril, me, zhiyun.

ACJC! yeah i got in. wth right? val you should have tried. ohwells. anyways, i got into a class! (yeah they didnt misplace my name this time.) 1SB4! this issnt the whole class cos the rest were off somewhere. but OHWELLS!
i found out that bryan is my mum's friend's son. it's damn coincidential! it's like... you dont meet for 10+ years then u see the person again. ._.

i guess i've sort of gotten used to AC... JJ was FUN but yeah well... I MISS YOU ALL!!! Jonyap and i went down to JJ a few weeks or something ago... we got KILLED. GORDEN YOU SUCK.
okay anyways, yeah we went down to like... cam whore with people and like say hi. got water bombs thrown at us and like... haha we went for Movie Under The Stars WET.

left to right: meibin, me, nat. i seriously didnt know they were wet when they hugged me. URGHS.

left to right: me, damien (our dancer OGL), jonyap. they were all soapy and retarded! somehow it was like all our OG people got like... hypnotised or something. they were all so high and like... cheering... HAHA OHWELLS.

anyways after that i went for MUTS with like... Satay's and Ting's OG.

left to right: ben, nick, ting, huanny, me, jo-ann, eugene.

we sort of played truth or dare before that... the dares were interesting... HEEHEES........

ro, domo and i. anyways, now everymorning is like... wake at 515, leave house at 550, reach sch by 7. WE HAVE A 74 BUS GANG! hahaha!

mervyn and i camwhoring at the busstop. HAHA. both of us get on at mcritchie then ro gets on at hwa chong. satay and ting gets on at KAP and then we make alot of noise. ALOT.

(mervyn is retarded. just cos satay and i were talking bad about him across him he shouted 'TIEW TIEW' in the bus. then there was this silence where EVERYONE looked at us.)

caro took this pict! it's damn cool! the guy behind is like... drinking it. HAHA. it's a good advert pict.

left to right: ian, mingrui, me, siyu, wenhui, eugene, jarrell.

fire drills are the most useful time to camwhore! HAHA. crap i just heard that our form teacher is gonna post picts of us cam whoring under the umbrella during fire drill on the AC website. WE'RE SCREWED. HAHA OHWELLS. people all over were like... sitting on the grass with an umbrella over them. it was a good fire drill.

i ~~ponned~~ fell sick today. got an mc for pe for the next week and slept from like... 8am to 6pm. tutorials ~~suck~~ are useful in helping us understand our work. must ~~not~~ do tutorials! omg got damn alot to do!!! crap.

i've gotten lost in physics already. chem's still fine. math is... i think i know. econs is like... let's say i know as much about econs as i did 16 years ago. crappy.

i wanted to go for training today but my dad didn't allow.

thanks for everything you did cos i couldnt.

revelations. shock. then you'll learn to be thankful.

2008-12-13T20:22:00.005+08:00

YAY! i'm blogging again! woohoo! that's just cos i'm reaaally in a super super good mood! yays!!! haha actually i'm posting cos i have to SHARE MY JOY!!!! anyways, me shanny justina emma jasmine cassie and jasmine's cousin went for eoy cosplay event today!!! PICTS PICTS!!!

the blue guy was taken during afa tho. HIS EYES BLINK!!!

Kakashi from naruto! this was taken right before uhh.... the excitement..............

Mitsukuni Hunny from ouran! he doesnt have his Mori-senpai today... =\

The whole Kyou kara maou clan!! WOOHOO! hahaha me and shanny kept looking at them when wolfram went to change into this pink night gown.... cassie was quite surprised when we told her it was a guy character in the night gown... ._. OHWELLS!

Akazukin chacha!! justina was like "OMG IT'S THE THE...... BOBO CHA CHA!!!" hahahaha! damn funnny.....

the... BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA guy from bleach... what's his name? dunno...

terrorist from CS! haha their guns make the shooting sound too!!

the Vampire Knight clan

MOJO JOJO!!! he's looming over nell and kon!!

little nell and little kon........

Big nell!

Big Kon!!

Haha we managed to take a pict of shirosaki sleeping!! he's ichigo's hollow! he slept through like... the whole afternoon? haha!

Tsubasa clan!

Darth Vader!!! the light saber makes sounds!!! haha!

me and shanny with a storm trooper!!

Haruhi vs Darth Vader!!!

L! this was from AFA... today there were like... almost 6 people dressed up as L... lost count....

Vash! from Trigun... this was from AFA but he was at EOY too! he went on stage and did the 'LOVE AND PEACE!' thing!

BYAKUYA!!!

Nagato Yuki with a REAL electric guitar...

OH OH OH!!! HAHAHA THIS TOTALLY MADE MY DAY!!! okay so shanny, jusjust and i were walking then we saw this whole group of naruto people... then we decided to take some picts... then it's like all of a sudden, Naruto jumps this other character and kissed!!! then everyone was like "WOOOOHOOOO OMGOMG!" den all takes picts! i pulled out my cam knocking some other naruto guy's face in the process but HECK!!!

took a whole bunch of picts!!! of like random guy characters kissing each other!!! AHHHHHHHHH OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!!!!! theres more of those........ picts... HEHEHEHE!!!

the bunch of kids there were like snapping picts too la!!! some random girl in the crowd was like... "THIS IS NOT SUITABLE FOR KIDS!!!" then she continued taking more picts!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

ahem. anyways. YAY! happy!~ WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!~~

2008-08-23T11:13:00.002+08:00

short post! if it helps.

well... its the ending of prelims and everyone has worked hard (somewhat)... we'll have a short rest before mugging like shit for O lvls ya...? well... life is like this picture... theres only one route during our schooling life and no matter how dangerous and scary it is, we'll still have to go through this... just know that somehow, we'll always come out of this path alive and safe. (no matter how much we say "die".) so... just trust Him and know that he'll never allow this burdern and load to drop on us ya?

yes, this is really construction going on in my neighbourhood and i have to walk thru that everyday... life sucks that way. stay strong people! prelims are almost over! then onto Olvls. its just that much more...

IT'S OKAY LI JIA WEI YOU'RE STILL NUMBAH 1 PING PONGER IN CYEO'S HEART!!!

2008-07-26T12:31:00.011+08:00

Okay so yesterday was founder's day! and we had like... founder's day dinner. me, ting, satay and shanny crashed and booked a room in meritus. as soon as we reached the room, me and shanny went to jump on the bed already so within 3 mins, the bed was like... unrecognisable....

no idea why we had to camwhore on the bed. but yah. lalala~

the thing is that... those 3 have been talking about buying sumthing for like... the longest time in front of me... and they think i dont know what they're talking about but actually..... I DO! ha!!
ting was like "Eh jia xin left some jewellery at paragon worth 680 bucks! i need go take for her!"
so she took shanny along. right before she left, she was like "if i get kidnapped, you know why."

okay so like... after awhile, the two came back. then satay was trying to off the lights but like... she couldnt find the main light switch so like... wth. hahaha! and they walked in with the cake! awwww. thanks you three! although i knew about it. (shanny dont hate me.) haha ting can't lie to save her life.

but the cake was damn freaking good. like... ice cream cake... from swensens! hahahaha! it was fun to look at ting and shanny's face when i told them i knew about the 'surprise' long ago... damn funny. satay blew the candle for me (you owe me a candle char!!!) and we started using fingers to eat the cake. (pang said shanny looked like she was digging nose when she eats the cake and so the convo started getting gross...)

anyways. THANKS ALOT YOU THREE! so nice to me... *sobs* lalala! and thanks for the pallet char! heees im gonna like... frame it up or sumthing! thanks for the music box val! and nat for the random stuff (NO PINK!!!) in the box! ^^ thanks vii for the drawing (its damn nice!!) and ro for the chocolate (at least u didnt get the mug...) yays im happy. ^^

anyways, before that we went to seoul garden for lunch... ting was making friends with the ginseng in the soup again and shanny joined in... gosh.... they started naming the ginseng la!!! lol! ohwelllss. damn funn! and thats pang in shanny's crown... awwww~

and then we had the formal dinner at like... 730... satay was getting ready for it and she took damn long! (cos she had to put on eye lashes) haha sat was the only one who knew how to put make up i think... ohwells!

yay thats like... all the people i took picts with... haha everyone looks damn different la!!

shanny and i took this pic in our room. notice the bed... haha! its like... damn messy.

jia and i. satay's in the background putting on her makeup... jia was trying to make me shorter!!!

satay wear heels (four inch issit?) still shorter than me without heels! woohoo!! hahaahaha~

ro is that rose for me? haha! ro and i... she crashed for like... what 5 mins? bleah. she didnt wear a dress but she still looks good! at least u came ro! ^^ i'll give u a big hug on monday.

me and tricia... eh where was isabel arh? never see her... ohwells!

us four again. we had fun camwhoring i guess... lalala. it was a good day... finally got to see ting and shanny in a dress... then we went to cine to play arcade with pang in like... the dresses and it was damn funny! ohwells.we were not supposed to sleep but in the end, ting slept first followed by shanny and satay and i slept at 1++. jia came in in the mid of the night la.... and slept in her tube dress... got a shock in the morning. HAHA!

17 more days to prelims people! haha we study hard together and then see u people in the same JC okay!!! yay very good very good... WE DIDNT GET DSA. rawrh. ohwells. have to work hard. =(((( bleah.

2008-07-26T12:18:00.003+08:00

rawrhh look at my tagboard and just to prove ro wrong, i do blog when its not exam period too!! im just really lazy okay... and life is that boring..

anyways. 23/07 was sec four farewell! (aka chase the sec fours away) the sec 3s planned a night for us and performed to the theme 'High School Musical'. anyways the main purpose was to let the sec fours enjoy their last night...

shanny performed to the song 'fabulous' in this... blond wig and sunglasses with a crown on her head... yeah it was like... hillarous! then the juniors were also like... dancing.. it was super funny la! and shanny in pink is already enough to make my day! =))

rawrhs. the last item was like this super sad song and the sec 3s like sort of thanked all the sec fours... the best thing is that they started crying and started hugging each other and they like... forgot about the sec fours!! (HOW CAN!?!?) they remembered us after awhile tho... OHWELLS! thanks you all!!! it was GREAT!

just a random shot of gale burping.

yay its the four of us again! =))

the old committee and the new committee together! top, left to right: jia xin, satay, me and gale. bottom, left to right: qiao er, grace, denise and eva.

You four better take care of the team okay!!!

it was like... a sad night... ohwells! it was good and entertaining. good job people! and thanks for everything this year!!

2008-05-16T18:57:00.006+08:00

wells... today was like... ss and geog test. GLOBALIZATION DIDNT FREAKING COME OUT! woohoos... ahhhhh. i think half of 4M only studied globalization right? haha life sucked. anyways. all i could remember for the iraq kuwait thingy was wee's friend's bloody notes.

2)economic. in iran-iraq war iraq got alot of gao li dai. now qian hen duo qian. furthermore also need money to repair its country and economy. tried to gain this money through oil production revenue. but kuwait and UAE overproduce so oil price went down and iraq lost alot of money, so very very buey song. felt it economic war was happening

and for globalization:

2)social, loss of local culture but increased awareness of foreign culture. local culture cos of macdonalds, starbucks, rap music etc. local culture and flavour not there. now no more hokkien song etc. no more erhu uncle.

uh huh. but i could remember it... ahhwells.

mep test back. ... we just have to work harder for prelims people! well... just heck mep awhile but lets not give up KAY. yes. mep sucked.

anysway, after school (LAST DAY OF EXAM WOOHOOOOSS!!) tingting:

and Satay:

and i went for makan at taka Seoul Garden. lol! Satay just spammed chicken and beef while ting was trying to experiment everything. including boiling chicken, grilling crabmeat... retardedness. and then, we decided to experiment somemore...

we decided to grill the ice from the ice kachang... so its like... bubbling.... and its pink! eeewws...

and of course there was ice cream so we grilled that too. well... ting did. satay was grilling the corn from the top of the ice kachang since it tasted really weird. i was just grilling anything in my kachang: chendol, nata de coco...

ting also grilled a gingseng root... it USED TO BE like.... whitish brown... until she mixed it with the burnt left over syrup from uh... god knows where...

after that we walked over to Heeren (ting: walao so hot!) to HMV to like... look at CDs. satay and i were looking for the CD we were gonna use for bowling camp... and ting was being suspicious... she's clueless. lallalala~

guess what was the song in HMV? remember the song with the lyrics "i'm a little lamb lost in the woods?" its a jazz piece? remember...? think mep. anyways. it was one of the songs ms tsian played for one of our test. bloody shiit.

GG next week. results back. rawrhhhs. i shall... go out on monday before the killing starts?

mehhs. cheer up ro. 'Spore for the win' was uh... yeah you'll never get to do it in ur life again. so... ITS MID YEARS! dont give up ro! iloveyou!

wells... something to lighten up your day... may work, may not. whatever. wee and i were looking at motivational posters.... reaaaaallly retarded ones... here's one...

lesson learnt: dont study what you think its gonna come out. because teachers just love to laugh at our misery. rawrhs.

2008-05-12T20:46:00.002+08:00

today was mep. died. life sucks at the moment. but anyways. today was... fun retarded... yes. amazing how exams days can be... fun... rawrhs.

last minute cramping haydn and other mep shit in the practice room...

more like they were playing with the kittens actually... tricia and isabel took these two from the market place near school... damn freaking cute. appearently isabel's the mummy... how did the feeding go? =X

okay so uh... ya. ventilation. every living thing appreciates it. right.

anyways. onto being retarded today.
"erhu is blown."

"how many strings does a balafon have?! (balafon is a xylophone)"
shao said 8 didnt she? or wassit isabel... hmm....

exam was... shit. ya. shit. anyways. tomorrow is physics... really dunno how to study already but i shall confort myself by telling me that i have actually memorised the formular list. tho i think thats not gonna help at all since mr liu is probably gonna set 'thinking' questions. ahh screw life.

work done(J) = force(N) x distance
force(N) = mass(kg) x accleration(ms^-2)
pressure(Pa) = force(N) / area(m^2)
density(ro) = mass(kg)/volume(m^3)
pressure in liquid (pa) = density(ro) x height (m) x gravity(-10m/s^2)
power(W) = work done(J) / time(s)
kinetic energy(J) = 1/2 x mass(kg) x velocity^2(ms^-1)
GPE(J) = Mass(g) x gravity(-10m/s^2) x Height(m)
refractive index (n) = speed in vacuum / speed in medium
n = 1/ crit angle
n = sin angle from air / sin angle in medium
wave speed (m/s) = frequency (Hz) x wave length(m)
frequency(Hz) = 1/period (s)
current (A) = charge (C) / time (s)
EM force(V) = workdone (J) / charge (C)
P.d (V) = Resistance x Current (A), aka. V = RI
1/focal length = 1/u + 1/v
magnitude = Height of Image (m) / Height of Object (m)

technically thats all i remember... wells. yeahs. OFF TO DRAWING! rawrhs. all the best to physics girls tomorrows. have fun!

2008-03-29T15:14:00.003+08:00

okay so today was the olympic games for us... it was... fun but kinda disappointing overall i guess. hahahaha! but we fought together and had fun together and thats what matters huh?
dont care about which ball you didnt managed to catch or who injured you! its over so lets just place this at the back of our minds and remember the better things instead!

sec 4 olympics is sumthing like.... each class draw lots to what country they're gonna be and whoever gets china, is the host of the olympics! so 4m was GREECE! anyways, then the host country gets to pick the games we're playing. so china picked floorball, handball and basketball.

anyways, the opening ceremony was like... all the countries march in with their mascots... hahahaha its like... val foo was out mascot.... she wore a SEE THRU dress! hahahahahaha okay not see thru but bad enough.

then, we had to do some oath thingy and we were sort of lost... but anyways! its time to light the torch and start the olympics! so china, being the host country for the olympics, was given a STOVE STARTER and then, she and her flag bearer had to run upstairs to light.....

a candel. okok its supposed to be a torch... hahahaha! but thats retarded.

moving on... i played floor ball today! and this ^ is the floorball team!!! left to right: joy, deborah (back), caro (front with the peace sign), isabel next to deborah, su-lyn, michelle, vicky, nick and grace.

we practiced hard.... yeah i think we sort of sort of sorrrtt offf... did. lol! prob was we had no strategy and well... we managed to get into the semi finals tho...

lol there was this game which was super funny... grace and i asked the empire(?) how many mins left, she said 20 seconds. so we were winning anyways so me and grace joker went to swap at last 20 seconds. playplayplay, we scored a goal, i fell on the floor laughing, grace did too. then, after awhile, we realised that the game was still on. den like
"EHH!? I THOUGHT 20 SECS LEFT?!"
empire replied theres still 20 secs more. LOL!!!! super joker.

if you dont know wth is floorball, think HOCKEY.

caro likes weired picts... i dunno if this is considered emo... or futuristic....

this is brazil vs china i think... yeah! satay's class! haha.

shake hands... den start. im waiting for satay to upload the vids on youtube or sumthing... got this super nice vid of jamie shooting into the goal.... and a few others of the teams playing... yeah! its nice... ahhwells. it was fun.

CONGRATS TO DENISE AND GRACE FOR GETTING INTO MASTERS AND NICE JOB TODAY THE BOTH OF YOU!
denise got into step ladders and got a third! WOOHOOO NICE JOB!

i'm burnt, black, and very very tired. yay.